Fighting Fate by Linda Kage

BOOK 1 in The Granton University Trilogy
Contemporary New Adult Romance
Orginally published 16 July 2013
93,902 words, 286 pages
2-Flame Sensuality Rating

Forgiving your brother's murderer may be noble, but falling in love with him borders on betrayal.

When Paige Zukowski enrolls at Granton University in honor of her dead brother, she has no idea fate will land her on the same campus with the very guy who killed him. But Logan Xander isn't quite the murderer she's always believed him to be.

A day hasn't passed since the tragedy that Logan doesn't wish he could go back and undo everything. It doesn't take Paige long to realize he's suffered as much as she has. Forgiving him for ruining her life might not be so impossible after all. But when she actually starts to like him and realizes he likes her in return, their true anguish begins.

(Amazon Publishing took over publication from the 2013 edition in 2014)



Paige Zukowski dressed in the dark, her fingers fumbling over the buttons on her blouse. She tried a breathing technique to calm her rattled nerves.

Inhale. Hold. One, two, three. Exhale. Hold. One, two, three. Inhale…

The buttons were mismatched. She frowned and started over, forgetting whether she was on inhale or exhale. Only when she was about to pass out because she was still holding her breath did she let a lungful of oxygen rush from her chest.

Oh, well. Breathing was overrated anyway. She gave up on the entire re- laxation attempt and closed her eyes as she worked her way higher. Trace used to tease her relentlessly about fastening things from the bottom up.

"You just gotta do everything backwards, don't you, Pay Day? You're sup- posed to start at the top and go down. You miss less buttons that way, plus it keeps your gig line in order."

She'd raised an eyebrow at that one. "My what line?"

"It's a military term." He had shrugged with his usual nonchalance. "Some- thing to do with making sure your buttons, belt buckle, and fly run a straight column down the front of your body."

Paige's derisive snicker had told him what she'd thought of that. "Are you joining the Army now? Since when do you know military terms?"

Lying way too comfortably on her bed with his legs stretched out and crossed at the ankles and his arms resting behind his head, he had merely sent her a cocky smile. "I know everything."

And he had. Her brother had been the brightest, most promising member of their family. He was going to go places. Even after his funeral, the college acceptance letters had poured in, inviting him to attend their university with a full ride.

He'd been anticipating the letter from Granton University the most. And it had come with a complete scholarship included.

Two weeks too late.

Her own nostalgic smile dying, Paige tried not to remember his infectious grin, though it was hard, particularly this morning. She left the top two buttons unfastened so she wouldn't feel as if she was choking through the entire day, and cold metal brushed the back of her hand as she manually tried to straighten her crooked gig line. With a sigh, she wrapped her fingers around the cool amulet draping her neck. A ruby embedded in a Celtic-looking cross. Trace had given it to her on her thirteenth birthday since ruby was her birthstone.

It was big, and clunky, and kind of gaudy, but in the three years he'd been gone, she'd yet to take it off. She squeezed the shape of the cross into her palm and whispered into the dim dorm room.

"For you, Bubba. I won't let you down."

A buzz echoed around her. Paige jumped, freaked for a split second that the ghost of her brother was responding…until she realized her cell phone was simply vibrating across the corner of her new desk, announcing an incoming call.

On the other side of the room, sheets rustled from the shadowed corner, giving her another heart attack. Still not used to sharing her space with any- one else, especially a complete stranger, Paige dashed a worried glance in the direction of her roommate's bed as she leaped toward her phone to silence it.

"Hello," she answered in a harried, hushed voice, trying not to wake Mariah, though honestly, Mariah hadn't seemed all that worried about not waking her when she'd come stumbling in at two this morning, cursing across the dark room until she'd turned on the light over her bed and jerked Paige from a restless sleep.

Huddled under her covers, Paige had feigned unconsciousness until Mariah had changed into a camisole and shorty shorts, then passed out face first on top of her covers, the reek of stale alcohol and cigarettes filming the air. Paige had waited five minutes before she'd tiptoed across the floor and killed the lights. It had taken her another hour to fall back to sleep in between counting every time Mariah tossed and turned, making the springs on her mattress screech and moan.

"Hello?" a quiet voice breathed back. "Why are we whispering?"

Paige sat on the edge of her bed, relieved to hear her best friend. "Because my roommate's still asleep."

She squinted through the dark, wondering if she actually should wake Mariah. Her new roomie probably wouldn't like being late on the first day of classes. But if she was the type to habitually come in at two in the morning, then maybe she was smart enough not to schedule an early course.

Paige wiped at her tired, dry eyes, wondering what had possessed her to sign up for anything before nine herself.

Rookie freshman error, she decided.

"Ah. So…how's it going with the whole roommate thing?" Kayla asked. "She okay or what?"

Stray beams of morning light filtered into the room, giving Paige a glimpse of her organized desk. She studied the four-by-six framed photo of Trace nestled next to the television.

"She's…fine." Since meeting only the day before, Paige had really only talked to Mariah a few times. The previous night's conversation had lasted but a couple of minutes before some guy had knocked on their door and whisked her roommate away. But those few moments hadn't been pleasant. "We're still getting used to each other."

"Hmm. So, are there any available hotties there asking you out yet?"

Paige rolled her eyes. "Not hardly."

"What! No available hotties at all? What kind of college are you at?"

With a snicker, Paige corrected, "No one's asked me out."

"Oh." Kayla sighed. "Well, they will."

"Kayla, I didn't come here to date a bunch of — "

"Yeah, yeah, yeah. You're there because of Trace. And I'm telling you right now, that's the worst reason in the world to move so far away from home to attend a school you don't even like."

Paige's back straightened with indignation. "I never said I didn't like — "

"Well, you don't love it the way he did. Paige…" Kayla sighed again, this time sounding like a wise old parent tired of repeating the same lecture.

"Look, I can't talk about this right now." It was her first day of school. Besides, they'd been over it before. A lot. Nothing had changed her mind so far. Nothing would change it now.

So what if her best friend in the world thought Paige was crazy for trying to live a dead boy's life for him? It wasn't as if she had her own future to look forward to. After Trace's funeral, her world had collapsed. Her parents had turned away from her, too entrenched in their own misery to help her deal with hers. Her mother had descended so far into depression she'd looked right through Paige. And after her mom was gone, her father had drowned himself in booze. Paige had lost everything.

The only way she'd been able to dig her way out of the agony had been to focus on Trace's lost dreams, to decide she'd live them for him and become what he'd always wanted to be.

"I really need to get to class," she said, standing up and slipping into the sandals she'd set out last night to wear with her first-day outfit.

Kayla sighed. A third time. Really, it was too much. "Sweetie, you know I love you. I just want you to be happy. But — "

"Love you too," Paige broke in with fake enthusiasm. "Talk later." Discon- necting the line, she cringed, telling herself she'd call back and apologize after she actually survived her first day of school. Right now, she had other worries.

She had college to start, a first class to find, a dead boy's life to fulfill.

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